THE DEPTH, November 27, 2020. SOMEWHERE Brought into this world a wanderer Treading untreaded waters It’s hard to leave your hurt behind But somewhere there’s a place So wherever I go I’ll send a message out Delivered through space and time And you’ll know that I’ll be alright ‘Cause even losers find peace of mind But there’s only so much time Before you and I disappear Sweeping through the night Like dust in the wind So wherever I go I’ll send a message out Delivered through space and time And you’ll know that I’ll be alright If only losers find peace of mind But there’s only so much time Before you and I disappear Sweeping through the night Like dust in the wind LIGHT Something reaches your eyes Light Light bounces off the walls Skin like milk I’m drinking your light Following your motion Dripping light into an ocean HEAVEN If there’s a place called heaven Why do we live below it? It’s about time we discovered it Heaven stop hiding Life works in mysterious ways We’re always changing ETERNAL Could you ever be so lonely? Could you ever be so quiet? Life is eternal If you want it THE DEPTH All the things we bury Live in the dark Struggling to reach the surface Evolving in a micro universe Catching glimpses of life above Feeding on the crumbs of argument Tickling the depths of our hearts With a vibrating sound BLACK HOLE A black hole among us Sucking human life Delivering a message About our fragility In a green garden Covered in spider webs The wings of a butterfly Fighting for its existence A landscape freezing Slowing down time Bringing our consciousness To a screeching halt A black hole Speaking to our weakness Pulling in every creature Lacking in motion INTO THE FOREST Whispering quietly Touching the space between A window of opportunity A glimpse Imaginary Uncertainty Into the forest Into the forest Following the herd Into the forest Into the forest EXPLORERS Chance was a burden So man made God Doomed by mortality Digging our way out Explorers Explorers …or losers In a future past Crossing the border To another life Explorers Explorers Getting lost trying to find our way Filled with a longing Blowing smoke in our faces Explorers Explorers And if you were him, would you start it over again? Just to see them grow, like plants In the end, what he found was that it’s the journey that counts Explorers Explorers Explorers Explorers What’s at the end of the road? Anxiety? Emptiness? Love? Belonging? NEVER BE AFRAID, March 25, 2020. Pre-sliced bread and peanut butter and my camera Waves rolling just outside, the sun shifts to the east In this land I find the world sings like a symphony I’m close to nature, I’m friends with beasts I'll never be afraid Of the things that I should fear I look over my shoulder, a transaction going down Among the swallows swarming, a crack in paradise I'll never be afraid Of the things that I should fear I'll never be afraid Of the things that I should fear As time goes by I find some things to hold on to I wade out until I’m knee deep in the water I'll never be afraid Of the things that I should fear I'll never be afraid Of the things that I should fear I'M LEAVING, WHO CARES? EP, October 25, 2016. TWO LINE SOLUTION I attended normalcy training Graduated first in my class Now I do well with sharp objects I handle them with care Looking for Looking, looking for A two line solution To a nine dot problem I embrace the chaos Found a drug, beautiful I see faces everywhere On the surface I am a predator Looking for Looking, looking for A two line solution To a nine dot problem Life reveals itself In the rearview mirror And I really do well With sharp objects Looking for Looking, looking for A two line solution To a nine dot problem Looking for Looking, looking for A two line solution To a nine dot problem And I am the problem NO MORE DONALD DRAPER No more Donald Draper No more lies in the paper No more stifled laughter No thoughts hereafter I saw them I saw them No more Donald Draper No more lies in the paper No more silent laughter No thoughts hereafter I saw them I saw their eyes I held their hearts BUS I hopped on a bus I might as well have walked In front of that bus Or thrown myself off a sidewalk I’m a slow talker I learn from my mistakes But I’m forever bound To my past I’m forever bound Bound to you I’m nowhere bound But to you ‘Cause you are my past And I live in the past The now is infinitesimal Too small And I’m too short-sighted And hooked on a feeling Whatever feeling I’m feeling whatever It’s now or never Don’t want to be dying forever I'M LEAVING, WHO CARES? Was it lies, was it only lies? Was it I, was it only I? I really felt I’m leaving, who cares? I’m leaving, who cares? But I really felt DECADE IN THE SHADE, November 27, 2015. SUN IS BURNING The sun is burning Burning in my head Always burning Burning in my head Leaves are rustling Rustling in my ears Always rustling Rustling in my ears Time is wasted Running from the past Always wasted Running from the past The moon is falling Falling to the ground Always falling Landing safe and sound A bridge is reaching Reaching for the shore Always reaching Reaching for the shore The nails are rusting Rusting in my walls Slowly rusting My wall's about to fall The beast is scratching Scratching at my door Always scratching Scratching at my door The beast will find me Hiding my bed Always find me Hiding in my bed TONIGHT We've all been Where we all wanna be Yeah, we've all been And we've all seen What we all wanna see Yeah, we've all seen And we all know What we all wanna know Yeah, we all know I'm waiting for tonight Let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight We all feel What we all wanna feel Yeah, we've all felt And we all know What we don't wanna know Yeah, we all know I'm waiting for tonight Let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight Tonight, let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight Let's all go tonight Tonight Tonight Tonight THE CITY OF YOU Nothing more to see Nothing to be found They've seen it all A disharmonic dream Choking on the clash of culture They can't get enough of you You're falling apart At every single seam But you rebuild yourself In the city of you In the city of you You know I've seen it all in you Coming home tonight Picking up the pieces of a life The air filled with echoes You're followed by your friends Standing in the shadow young and cold They know that you could be the one Because they've seen it all in you In the city of you In the city of you (we've seen it all in you) In the city of you In the city of you You know I've seen it all, and You find it hard to find yourself It's hard for you to find yourself And all the things you say that you wanna do And all the things you said they were meant for you You left them at home but now they're coming back to you Yeah, now they're coming back to you In the city of you In the city of you (we've seen it all in you) In the city of you In the city of you You know I've seen it all in you You know I've seen it all in you You know I've seen it all in you We know we've seen it all in you TV PEOPLE Sit back and watch the show We made it just for you Just to entertain you Just to sell you We believe there are Perhaps a child or two In the bunker you call home The bunker where you live The light is never on The TV always is Summer came and put an end to what we saw At least that's what we thought At least that's what we thought In the meantime, children laughed and played outside Bringing life to my backyard They weren't the only ones The light is never on The TV always is The light is never on The TV always is So sit back, enjoy the rest of the show Enjoy the rest of your life In the dark Sit back, enjoy the rest of the show Enjoy the rest of your life In the dark In the dark In the dark ALL IS BEAUTIFUL Common life Common life All is beautiful Common life All is beautiful Common life Common life All is beautiful Come alive All is beautiful LOVESEXGODANDDEATH Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death Oh, what can I say? What can I do? It's all been done Oh, it's getting weirder What shall I write my song about? I have an idea Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death Oh, it's all around you If you seek then you will find Oh, oh I have an idea Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death Love and sex and god and death And drugs BLACK-WINGED ANGEL I saw your face I couldn't lie Black-winged angel spiralling down Jagged clouds opened up the sky She looked at me I made her smile I was drowning Black-winged angel floating above Eat, drink, sleep, dance, fuck Say what's on your mind Soldier of your time Please don't leave me She pulled me out Said "you're all right Time and truth bends And nothing else you need to know my friend" I had to speak She'd come so close Ambassador of mendacities Reaching out for something in the night Eat, drink, sleep, dance, fuck Say what's on your mind Soldier of your time Say what's on your mind Soldier of your time Please don't leave me Please don't leave me Please don't leave me Please don't leave me FALLING FROM A STAR Was it something we said That made you wanna disappear? Everything that you put us through Like we wouldn't get hurt I wish that we could confront you I wish that we could I wish that we could keep waiting Until everything was perfectly clear Darkness thrived in your soul And fear abounded in your heart Weakness bore through your mind like a rusty nail Infecting all that there was I wish that we could confront you I wish that we could Pretend like it never happened And that everything... Wait, hold on You're falling from a star tonight Don't, don't go It's gonna be a long cold night When you're gone As you're drifting away Unmoved by feelings of guilt Concealing unspoken words we will never hear On a path of endless decay I wish that we could confront you I wish that we could Find hope in a new dimension And everything... Wait, hold on You're falling from a star tonight Don't, don't go It's gonna be a long cold night When you're gone JE NIE MA SOLITUDE (lyrics by Julia Jonas) Quelque chose me manque toujours Ca me poursuit sans relâche On me dit ça passera avec le temps Il y a un vide en moi, je le sens Il y a un vide en moi qui me vole tout ce qui me reste de vie et de bonheur Je n'étais pas supposée rester dans ce train qui ne s'arrêtera jamais Je nie mon existence Je nie ma solitude Qui me prend d’ou je n’appartiens Qui me prend d’ou elle ne devrais pas Je nie mon existence Je nie ma solitude Elle me prend d’ou je n’appartiens Elle me prend d’ou elle ne devrais pas Je pense souvent a un beau jour Mes possibilités aussi Mes rêves vont me revenir Bien vite Je n'étais pas supposée rester dans ce train qui ne s'arrêtera jamais Je nie mon existence Je nie ma solitude Qui me prend d’ou je n’appartiens Qui me prend d’ou elle ne devrais pas Je nie mon existence Je nie ma solitude Elle me prend d’ou je n’appartiens Elle me prend d’ou elle ne devrais pas AGENT COOPER (instrumental) SEVEN HOURS My mind is wandering To the great Antarctica And to nature's wonders And all across the universe All across the universe I need uncontrollable Give me great that makes me small And take me out into the unknown 'Cause heaven knows what I could do Heaven knows what I could do I'm reaching out For a feeling Strong as the beginning And as strong as Rufus Strong as Lennon singing "All we have is love, and it's all" Seven hours to restart To get a little rest, get rid of everything Try not to think of Green lights and open roads Green lights and open roads I took your hand but I was drugged And dreaming, probably the best and worst thing that I could've done But I will get away with this Yes I will get away with this I'm reaching out For a feeling Strong as the beginning And as strong as Rufus Strong as Lennon singing "All we have is love, and it's all" When he's almost there Can he turn himself around? I'm reaching out For a feeling Strong as the beginning And as strong as Rufus Strong as Lennon singing "All we have is love, all we have is love, all we have is love, and it's all" I DREAMT... I dreamt that I was on a star High above I dreamt that I was there alone Fading out I set the time on my alarm My burning clock I left behind an empty shell A silent man But you came And you gave And all you gave was all your aching love for all of me Yeah, and you said Yeah, you begged That I would hide no more upon no star away from you From you The thought of leaving made me weak You should’ve seen The stars were shining all for me Their light healed But you came And you gave And all you gave was all your aching love for all of me Yeah, and you said Yeah, you begged That I would hide no more upon no star away from you Away from you If you have died You can speak through me My eyes will make you see My hands will feel for thee Yeah, you came And you gave Your aching love was strong enough to lead me home, to make me whole And you said What you did That I would live again through you, your eyes would make me see And your hands Would feel For me << centuryofecstasy.com